Because the Christmas season is closing in and I'd like some extra money I decided to join a place called CashCrate. Link's there if you want to copypasta it and try it out.

http://cashcrate.com/930610

I don't expect to make a load of money off this site but you know... the extra $20 to whatever a month would be nice. Most are a bunch of surveys to take while others are just so you register. I haven't tried ones that are more than $1.00 payout yet. It's not my solution for extra Christmas cash. My solution was to apply at the local Wal-Mart, for the second time. Maybe I'll luck out and get a job there. If that fails, I might do what someone suggested and do the 900 number deal, lmao. Though I rather not.

A big chunk of me is kinda in an ill mood today for a lot of reasons. A smaller chuck is kinda sad while a even smaller one is indifferent. All I can think of saying is how I wish Christmas was here and over with. The sooner it passes the sooner we won't need to worry about making sure to get everyone something for Christmas while making sure we got food in the house or a bill paid. Don't get me wrong. I love Christmas, not for the gifts (though they are nice) but for how everyone gets so cheery and the lights. But since this winter is a bad one for the economy it feels like people are getting less cheery and more ill. Also, I want to do something to fix this problem but I can't think of a good way to do it. And that irks me.

I'm sad because Wes feels the need to work all the hours they throw at him. Sure, the extra money is nice but... I like spending time with him and doing all the lovey dovey stuff like cuddling. But he wants to make sure his next check isn't like the one he got yesterday. After a part of the house payment was made and we got diapers for the boys, he had $100 for groceries and a little bit for gas and his cigarettes. I don't blame him for wanting to get all the hours he can but it makes me feel worthless that I can't do something about it. I've offered to try to sell things I got that I don't need anymore but he don't want me to do it.

I'm indifferent because it seems like most around me are indifferent to all the things going on. I know that they care but a couple just don't act like it. And if they can be that way, I figure I should try too. They are just doing better than me.

I don't want to wish Christmas was over because I do have two little boys that do look forward to it. But it don't feel very merry. And I don't want them to view Christmas as a time when adults get cranky.

Well, for once I got a few things on my mind that I think I can easily put on here. Most people who know me know that I'm an admin for two forums. While they might not be huge like most with their 10000+ members and 1000000+ posts, they have plenty of people on them. I used to post a lot on one called WireForums until the internet drama got to be too much. I considered the place my online "home", a place where I spent most of my free time. And heck, one time I entertained the thought of being a mod (or at the least asking to be one). Now, I'm co-owner for a forum that has no drama at all (everyone is like a big family) and I thought maybe it wouldn't be a stressful thing to do. Well, it isn't very stressful. But it is. I'm supposed to invite everyone I meet to join in hopes they will like posting on there. It's hard to do when I don't know a lot of people or the fact they already post on there. But I still try. I join a few forums and get to know more people hoping they will join FKR. But I'm getting burnt out doing this. I have trouble remembering every forum I joined and the names I use on there. And I wind up neglecting other things I want to do. Like try to improve my graphic designing.

I've been a user of GIMP for a year or so. GIMP is a freeware program similar to PhotoShop. I enjoy using GIMP and I'm proud of some of the things I've done with it. I know I can do better and I strive to learn everything I can to better myself. I want to be the go-to girl when someone wants a logo or signature. But with my trying to do twice the best I can on forums, I don't have time for it. So I've been taking time off from posting a lot. I've wanted to spend more time doing things I enjoy. I make sure to spend time with my kids as they are very important. But I was thinking after my last entry, maybe if I work more on GIMP and learn C++ then I might be able to make some extra cash. I've found a site that will teach me the basics of C++ so that's good.

On a side note, today is my youngest son's birthday. He turned 3 but is telling everyone he is 4. Haha... He's so cute. I ought to make a entry just describing my two boys and their antics. Maybe tomorrow.